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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 01:28

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

He was dying to do it , i knew.

He knew the spot.

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She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

She married twice! .

All the time i was locked up.

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One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

My mum and dad in the seventies!

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Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

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Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

But it wasn’t much.

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Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I had hoped to write a book about this .

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My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

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But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

But ive been too sick for many years..

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

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I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Should I have left it alone and kept quiet? I came out as gay to my adult kids last week. Age 61 married 15 years, divorced for 20. I feel so guilty for ruining their lives by living a lie.

One cannot live in the past .

It was going to be , some day.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

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This is soul school!.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

How severely should I get punished? Please describe throughly. Today I got my result of my test nd I found out that I failed in 2 subjects, my parents are currently in abroad nd I lied to them about the fail but I feel guilty now.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I never cut or harmed myself..

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But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

She was in good health!

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And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

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She found it foreign!.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

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But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

But, we were locked up after school.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I have no regrets .

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

We were not on the streets..

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

As i do to all so called friends.?

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I think the readers, may guess!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I said to her

I could never make a relationship work though!

Put me off passion for life!!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

My life is so biszare .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

So, i spoilt her more .

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Comes on , in middle age.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I was seconnd youngest,

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Who then, do I blame.?

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

He resisted the act ,that day.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I will be 64.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I don,t even have a pension.

When she asked me how she looked .

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

She wouldn,t have been !

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

We all went to grammer schools

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

So whats the point in blame.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I was very sick at this time too.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

My family never makes their pension either.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

(And it was in our own minds.)

What did i know ?

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I was 9 years of age.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I write beautiful poetry .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

She loved him until the end.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

And i lived it daily.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Ive learnt so much.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I waited trembling.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Would this be the day?

They are buried together, in the same grave..

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I was scared of men, in general

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Im still living with it.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I couldn’t, believe it.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .